November 2022 Ki Raat

 Hi,

I don't know what I'm gonna write today, it just has been a few months like this, and I didn't really speak out my heart.  the last post I wrote was about the offer I received from Oracle, and since it's been months working in this new organization, I want to write what all happened between these months.

So after the resignation and during the serving notice period, I had to travel to Pune for the last month of NP. To be honest I was very sad and anxious how it will feel to be there after two years, Pune jo kabhi ghar hua krta that, dost jo family the.... sab badl gya I'm not against the change lekin ye ek bdlaw tha which I never wanted in my life.

Govind see mili Archi see bhi, they are super cool people sach me , I still love the message I got from Archi when I asked aap logon ka koi plan to ni haina weekend ka like Maine disturb kiya , and she said "Haina Namrata ke sath :)" I smiled and got bit relaxed. Govind tu yaar hai, I miss our gang seriously.

Madhura- I love her, I love her so much. I don't know kya hai mere dil me, I give priority to people and jab I consider the same for me, but jab pata chale many people belong to same priority in which I reside for them, it breaks my heart.

Anyways it's all cool, usi dauran pata chala ki health plays an important role in actually enjoying materialistic things. mera ek kaan kaam krna bnd kr diya , I couldn't hear whole month from both ears, couldn't enjoy a single ride in auto, cab or Mumbai local.

Fir shuru hua pain, went through ear surgery trust me not a single drop of tear shaded on my face not a single, didn't show a single sign of pain in the whole process while they were injecting more than 30-40 injections. I don't like to pity myself or sympathy from people or anyone. per day I had to get a shot of 4 injections 2 long and one short for 5 days initially then 10 days later after the operation.  Badi bua lekr jati thin rojana, I remember one day couldn't hold myself and tears started rolling down from my eyes, I still remember kya tha mere dil aur dimag me , Pain to tha hi , bt i was crying by thinking Aisa kya glt kiya hai kiya tha Maine jiska ye sila mila ra, I was so so so sad for myself, mai kabhi kabhi kabhi kisi ka dil nahi dukha skti kabhi nahi kabhi nahi , I love people and just cant let them suffer because of me , kabhi ni. but mere sath aisa kyu, I cried,I cried in front of Papa, mummy, Bua, Fufa Ji, everyone, I did which I hate the most , pity , to show myself weak.

Operation ho gaya, I'm good now, people came to see me,lol, aisa kuch tha bhi ni but still felt start for few days.

Waps aa gyi ghar , office shuru hua , first Microsoft and Google me interview diya, 2nd chance me screening round nikl gya tha but onsite me reh gyi , 3rd time screening bhi ni nikla.